Somebody asked me if I think my relationship is a match made in heaven. 

You saved me when I needed you most, and that was almost a year ago. You were (pretty much) there for two years before that. You have never turned your back on me, you always think of me. You make me laugh. You laugh at me. We don’t fight. I don’t cry because of you, but around you because I know you’ll make it better. I’m so proud of us, I love us. I love you so much.

Do I think it’s a match made in heaven?
I don’t know, but it seems pretty perfect right now.

What do you think?

How long is it going to take me to remember who I am?
How long is the time I wasted on you going to last?

I’m trying so hard to get back the creativity I had before you.
You sucked me dry,
I hate you.
I hate you.

Why does the car make everything so much better?

All hell can break, everything can fall apart one minute
And the next,
We’re in the car at 12:30 at night and everybody just shuts up.
Everybody is still quiet.
The music comes on
And everybody is all of a sudden better.
We keep driving and it’s 1 am.
People feel better, we’re happy
We’re laughing
It’s 2 am
2:30 before we get home.
We’re better. We sleep.

Does anybody have an RV I can have?

All that I know is I’m breathing.

I just want to be okay.

You make me sick.
The memory of you makes me ache.
The idea of someone like you is fucking disgusting.

I can’t believe how much of my life you wasted
You fucking psycho.

I feel so negative.
The doctor told me to get off my meds for a while.
I’m so frustrated.
So angry.
Fucking pissed right off.
I’m regretful and, well… just fucking pissed off.
I’m hard on the only people who love me and are doing everything they can to make sure I’m comfortable.
I spend my money like a madwoman to make myself happy, then wonder why I can’t afford to move out.

I eat like a cow.
Why do I do that?
I’m not even fucking hungry.
Good god dammit.
Give me medication.
Make me better.
Fuck this shit.

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.                                                                           
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Play more games.
6. Read more books than you did in 2010.
7. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
8. Sleep for 7 hours.
9. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:

1. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
3. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
4. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
6. Dream more while you are awake.
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
8. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more.
14. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:

1. Call your family often.
2. Each day give something good to others.
3. Forgive everyone for everything.
4. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
5. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
6. What other people think of you is none of your business.
7. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

1. Do the right thing!
2. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
3. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 
4. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
5. The best is yet to come.
6. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

What’s in a home?

Home is where your mum is.
Home is your family.
This is true; but sometimes home needs to be

A place where you can be naked
A place where your cat is
A place for quiet
A place to sleep in
A place to eat ice cream in bed
A place to be lonely.
I miss lonely.

Dear Greg of He’s Just Not That Into You:

I am seeing seeing this guy who is kinda fun. We go out for drinks with his friends,see his brother and dad… I used to live with him but now it’s just him in my apartment and I have to live with my mum. I go and stay there sometimes but he usually yells and elbows me because I snore. Since I moved out the apartment is a mess and he’s never there. He works full time and makes more money than me, but I still usually support him. He has cocaine and anger issues, but we have wonderful sex and like to laugh at the same things. 

It’s okay. Don’t bother responding.
I know the answer anyway.

Sarah